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I
met on a dating app in October 2019. Let's call him a DJ. So DJ and I stole
each other and didn't exchange numbers until we met. We did it the
old-fashioned way, so we immediately turned on each other. Immediately I felt a
spark, and when I met him at the mall, I held hands and
fell in love! On the first day he kissed my forehead and attracted me
even more to him. We had a 3-4 month date and it was all over because of my own stupidity and negative self-talk. I don't
care if he will marry me. I'm just enjoying the
moment with him and I'm in love, but I'm pretty connected to him.
And
oh! His phone came the same day he said
that his parents told him he didn't want
to get married in a caste other than him. So I cried. I'm laughing as I
write this, but believe me, it was a heavy
burden on my mind at the time. I was so
sad that I put the phone on hold for a long time, and it just called my
name and I was surprised. At the Hindu festival Diwali, I couldn't even yell
out because the puja was over, so I kept silent during that time. But at night,
when I was lying in bed, I cried like crazy and wondered why this happened. Later we spent some time at
his place and that was the last day we met after he again tried speaking to his
parents and they again said no. My heart and our relationship broke. So did his
because we both wanted to marry each other with the blessings of our family.
I
joined a new workplace and he asked me to be friends with him but somehow I
just couldn`t and we blocked each other on Instagram and WhatsApp. Afterward, I
realized I wanted him and an on and off texting from my side continued till his
birthday in June 2021. Then I finished it
and began to focus on revealing a new man with all the qualities I
wanted.
I
wanted to stop being a non-vegetarian, so I started thinking of him as a
vegetarian, but my friends and colleagues were the ones who never let me go. I revealed a circle of friends through Instagram
acquaintances, they are all vegetarians
and yes they are.

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